The Queen of Kings

The Queen of Kings

My girlfriend is 9 months pregnant with her first born.  What a joyous time. To see my friend bubble with excitement over baby shoes and room decor takes me back to my first pregnancy. The nervousness of becoming a mommy, wanting everything to be perfect, I also took lots of pictures and journaled the entire experience.  

As we are getting closer to her due date, I came up to bless her with the infamous "before you go into labor braids" that signals to me that she is really ready to have this baby.  When I  got here she told me she had an appointment at a place called, Tiny Portraits and wanted me to join her for a look inside the womb. As I watched my niece appear on the screen and so adorable and sweet, my curiosity peeked, I wanted to see the life living in me.

I thought I wanted a surprise at birth.  To experience that moment after 10 months of pregnancy and hours of labor, my husband announcing to me..."it's a ....". I thought I could endure the next few months of curiosity all while family, friends, and strangers asked again and again... "What are you having?". I couldn't.

The practitioner turned to me and asked, "Are you next?" to which I spontaneously replied, "YES".  My husband was not there so I texted him to make sure it was ok with him. He texted back, Go For It! And so I did.

As I lied down on the table I knew that this was the final moment of mystery.  I prepared myself by letting myself let go in that moment of any attachment to boy or girl.  I took a deep breath as she put the jelly on my belly.  The screen lit up and there appeared a penis.  The first glimpse of my child was his legs spread wide and a third shorter leg indicating to me that... I Am Man, Mommy."

My friend asked immediately if I was ok knowing my strong desire to have a daughter of my own. (I have many from others).  I nodded because I was ok.  I was so happy to be meeting my little king.  I am already the very proud mother of two boys and he completes the trinity of my Queendom.  I am the Queen of Kings ready to rule the world. 
 
Powers was so happy for me to see him too, turning toward the light to make sure I got a good look at his face. He was so handsome and delicious.  He danced and waved, kicked and turned. He put on a show for me and I loved every moment of it. 

This day allowed me to begin to bond with my son, Powers, instead of fantasizing about pink and bows.  I am happy to give my husband a son and maybe next year he will return the favor.            


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